Blogtoberfest Day 10 - And still I love him .....

 One day a long time ago I gave birth to this little boy.   He was a challenge.  He cried a lot, constantly cried.  But still I loved him.  He screamed day and night and tested my mothering skills to the limit.  But still I loved him.                    

 In amongst all of that he did smile sometimes.  He gave me the joy of mothering a baby boy. I didn't know that being a mother could be such a challege, but such a special thing all at once.  When he was just over a week old he ended up back in hospital ..... he had gastric reflux and projectile vomiting.  I knew that he was meant to be my baby, my boy, my son.  He was part of my life for a reason, and so I grew to love him more.                                         

And I loved him and he smiled........

Today you are 30 years old and I think of this boy who now is a man and a father to a boy of his own ..... I miss him more than words can say ..... and though we are apart, distanced by time and space ...... still he is a part of me and in my heart.

And still I love him, and will always love him .......