FEEL LIKE I'VE FALLEN OFF THE WAGON ....

What Wagon you might Say ???

Well it feels like I've fallen off the Blogging Wagon.  I haven't blogged since the 15th of January, and it feels like it has been forever.  Been so busy with studying and other things, that I just haven't got around to it.  Man those assignments come thick and fast.  Seems like you just get over doing one assignment and you're onto yet another.

Sometimes I feel like there has been a mental block there too where writing is concerned with regard to the blog.  I'm sure I'm not the only one that's had this problem .... or ..... am I ??

I'm onto my last essay for the subject I'm doing at the moment and it's something to get my teeth into.  The last assignment was a group assignment and whilst I didn't mind the topic, it certainly was a challenge.  The challenge was working with other people in a group, but online.  Two of the participants in our group were awesome, so helpful and both seemed to be committed to working in a group.  The three of us worked so hard and then the other three seemed to think they would leave all the work to us, although one other person sort of got their act together at the end.  It's hard too when most of your mark is reliant on what you all do as a group.  Still, can't be responsible for what others do and the tutors had a written record of what we all did, so I'm sure they'll take that into account when marking our assignment.  

Having said all that I have really enjoyed the topic and liked working on my own area.  I have learn't so much about working online.  I've found some lovely people out there in technology land who are willing to help.  Some have done other subjects and so they were a little more familiar with what to do than I was.  I felt like I was drowning, totally overwhelmed and out of my depth completely at the beginning, but now I feel heaps better and am finding that it's not so bad at all.  I'm sure I still have heaps to learn owing to the fact that I'm only just starting out, but now I know that I will get there, I feel so much better.  I'll come across other subjects where I'll feel out of depth, but this has shown me that somehow I'll get the hang of it at the end.

That's the part I feel good about, the fact that I know I can get the hang of things, even when at first it seems overwhelming.  That I have the intelligence and ability to do it.  It feels go to know these things and to realise that I've found this out about myself, by myself, without anyone telling me.   So often the lessons that we learn in life are the lessons that come through doing something else.  We learn them by ourselves and not by being told or being shown. 

Hopefully I'll start blogging a bit more now and take the time to still blog despite my study.  It's a bit of a challenge, but one which I'm not going to let get the better of me.

"Snail Mail" and the lost art of Letter Writing .....

Since the advent of the internet and email, it seems to me that we write to each other less and less these days.  I'm talking about the putting of pen to paper, writing a letter and posting it to someone by "snail mail".  I can't remember the last time I actually did that myself.


I've been thinking about it lately and realise that there are people in my life that do not have email.  They do not have Facebook or other forms of social networking.  There are people that find modern technology overwhelming and all too hard to contemplate.  They are mostly the older generation, the ones that have not grown up with computers, but rather with pen, paper and stamps. 


When I first broke up with my ex-husband 16 years ago I didn't have a computer, so sending emails to anyone was not an option.  I had several friends that I used to write to all the time and I'd wait in anticipation of their return mail.  It was wonderful to have friends to write to and express my happiness and a lot of sadness at that time and feel their love and encouragement coming back in the return letters.  I felt their arms around me through those letters.  I felt the hugs that they could not physically give me in their words ..... and I truly loved receiving those letters.  They were something that I so looked forward to.  I used to write to my grandmother at the same time and she was a wonderful support to me through it all ... she has since passed away and I still have some of the letters that she wrote to me and occasionally read them with fond memories.  Even when her writing got worse and she used to tell me "I have terrible handwriting now" (and they were sometimes hard to understand) ... I still read those letters and feel her love.

 

Letters were something that men or women used to write to the one that they loved.  Perfume was often sprayed on the paper so that the scent of the person would permeate the air when the letter was opened.  So that 'he' would know that 'she' was the love of his life.

Email is the easy way to write to someone these days, and since the advent of TWITTER and FACEBOOK it is now often a message on someone else's wall or a personal message .... or even a TWEET.  

I had a friend who said to me a little while ago that she loves getting mail in the post and she has sent me a couple of little notes and a Christmas card.  So I've decided to start writing letters to people more often.  I've been thinking about this for a while and have decided that since it has been on my mind for quite a long time, that it's something that I need to do.  

My mum doesn't use the internet, doesn't even have a computer, and even if she did have a computer she wouldn't know how to use it.  Sadly my mother is in the early stages of dementia and learning new skills is impossible for her at this point.  I speak to her on the phone a little less than I should and even though I know that she probably wouldn't write back to me, because she forgets to, at least she would have the pleasure of knowing what is going on in my life and receiving that in the form of a letter.

I think we live in an 'INSTANT' type world now .... a world where we often want everything ' yesterday '.  We don't want to wait for things ... everything is urgent.  We seem to have lost the patience of yesteryear and allowed this busy and sometimes crazy world to take over.  

I love the internet and all the good things that it brings to life.  I love blogging and without the internet that wouldn't be possible for any of us.  But I also love the good old-fashioned art of letter writing and I've decided that this year I'm going to do more of it.

ON BLOGGING

Was just wondering why any of us blog.

Do we blog to satisfy a need to write

or

To tell a story

or

To get something out from deep inside ourselves

some sadness

or happniness

joy

grief

pain

or

Do we just blog because we like the idea of others reading what we say.

Do we blog because we want others to know about what is happening in our life.

or

because we want to express something that is eating us up inside.

or

a need to belong to a community

or to share the things that we are capable of with others

such as crafts, photography, patchwork quilting, painting, organising, or any of a myriad of other talents and skills.

Perhaps to do all of these and remain in relative anonymity.

Why do any of us blog???